Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I miss Chloe so much it hurts...

I feel so sad everytime na uuwe ako ng bahay knowing that Chloe wasn't there anymore para salubungin ako and to scratch my legs para lang magpabuhat sakin. All the memories with that little dog was still fresh on my heart and mind. Mas gugustuhin ko pa na ma-broken hearted kesa mawalan ng aso uli. Kasi pag broken heated ako it will only last mga 12-24hrs lang and then ok na uli ako, but this one even though I look perfectly Ok eh hinde pa rin ako Ok! the 3yrs with Chloe around in our house is not easy to forget. For sure it will take like months before ako tuluyang maka-move-on on dealing with Chloe's lost.

Wherever Chloe's now I'm sure shes very happy, at least kahit na hiling sandali alam nyang ginawa ko ang lahat just to save her life. I already whispered na nga a prayer in heaven habang papunta kami sa Vet clinic na ready na ako i give-up yung pambili ko ng LV bag mabuhay lang si Chloe. Unfortunately dean on arrival na si Chloe as per the vet doctor, at first ayokong maniwala sa kanya, I am still hoping na biglang babangon si Chloe at tatakbo sakin, pero hinde she remains so stiff. We decided to go straight sa bulacan para ilibing si Chloe sa backyard, while we're on our way to bulacan I am still caressing her tummy for the very last time since yun yung favorite nya na ginagawa namin sa kanya.

Sa sobrang shock ko sa nangyari because everything is very unexpected, Tito ko na ang naghukay ng lilibingan ni Chloe with that i would like to Thank my tito and tita. Hinde na nga kami naka-uwe para kunin man lang sana ang gown ni Chloe, We put her on my doc martens shoebox and wrap her body in a Hello Kitty blanket. My friend who is a vet doctor said that there are some cases that even science cant explain why biglang namamatay ang mga doggy, sabi nya usually they're saving daw a member of a family from being sick or worst death din. Kaya naman yun nalang iniisip ko why Chloe left us that fast, maybe Chloe sacrificed her own life to save a life of one of my love ones. I owe a lot to Chloe, she knows everything a lot of me. I miss Chloe so much it hurts. One day we are going to be reunited again in heaven Chloe.

What more touching pa is all my friends are comforting me, because alam nila how I love Chloe. Some of my friends gave me milk tea and chocolates para hinde na ako masyado ma-sad. For sure Chloe is very happy because you are helping me to recover easily. Kahit na nga yung mga friends ko na hinde naman ganun ka-fond or ka animal lover eh talaga naman kinomfort din ako. Again in behalf if Chloe, Thank you so much!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

thank you Chloe :(

jan.13,2013

this day was so unexpected, when we got home there is something weird pag-park ng sasakyan namin because usually maingay na sa loob ng bahay because of Chloe and Nina na sasalubong sa pagdating namin. but tonight instead of loud barking, what I heard is parang iyak na tone from Nina, when I open the front door, I instantly open the cage of Nina and Chloe then open the lights. pero nagtaka ako dahil nung binuksan ko ung cage ni Chloe walang tumakbo papalapit sakin para salubungin ako which is Chloe always do, she will try to climb up sa legs ko na para bang nagpapabuhay. I am shock to see her na nakahiga lang sa cage almost no life at all with eyes open, slow breathing at umurong na yung tongue nya.

Shit! kinabahan na ako, I got my phone and called ate Len agad to ask what to do. ate Len told me na baka na-choked si Chloe so she gave me instructions to massage Chloe's whole body, to check kung may nakabara ba sa mouth ni Chloe and to give her cpr. but none of those work to Chloe, I googled agad kung may malapit ba na 24hrs vet clinic nearby our place and buti nalang meron nga (animal wonder clinic) so nagmadali kami agad ng tito at tita ko to drive papunta sa clinic, but then the saddest news was told to me nung vet, Chloe is dead on arrival. I don't know what to say or do, for a moment biglang nag-flashback lahat sakin from the start when I bring Chloe to our home.

I got Chloe as a birthday present for myself last sept 2011, she was so small and fragile that time. kids at home loved her instantly, specially Aj na takot talaga sa mga dog. She's very spoiled, Mom bought her pa some clothes sa japan and ung carrying bag as well. Chloe is the best companion whenever we travel like in tagaytay and baguio. best in rampa yan at best in avail din ng mga outfit sa mga ganap, pinapa-customized ko pa mga dresses nya sa friend kong mananahi para she will look so bongga. We invited some dogs at the house nung 1st bday nya in human age and I made her dog food lasagna that time. She had a six layers of tulle gown on my cousins 18th birthday, yes inavail nya ang pagrampa at mas agaw eksena pa si Chloe.

Chloe is very malambing as she will always make higa at your side para magpa-rub ng tummy nya. feel na feel din nyang magpa-hele para makatulog. Chloe is very selosa as well like when Im holding Nina bigla nalang cya susugod kay Nina hanggang sa mag-away sila. Chloe always sneak out sa labas ng bahay, but she knows naman kung paano umuwe at hinde mahirap tawagin, unlike Nina na lalo ka pang paghahabulin. Chloe had two puppies in a normal delivery, thats Liempo and Turbo which I gave na to my two close friend na I know that will love them unconditionally.

Thank you Chloe for always scratching my legs with that na-iinform mo ako na dry na pala ang legs ko at kailangan nang lagyan ng moisturizer. Thank you Chloe for being my jogging buddy kahit na mas mabilis kapa sakin tumakbo at best in hyper ka. Thank you Chloe sa palaging pag-agaw ng hawak kong pagkain mas mabilis kapa kay Lupin, at hinde lang ako inaagawan mo pati sila Aj. Thank you Chloe for your unconditional love and friendship. Thank you Chloe for everything! I will miss you...



























Saturday, January 5, 2013

PAMINTA KA BOY

PAMINTA-a Filipino slang term for closet gay, or someone who keeps his being gay a secret to people, even his closest friends. The word “paminta” is the literal translation of “pepper”.

1. Laging naka-body fit

2. Madaming alam na gay lingo

3. kapag gumawa ng thread about gays ay gay

4. Galit sa bakla at masyadong defensive!

5. Gym ng gym. Batak ang katawan sa kagy-gym. Wala naman syang ibang sport na nilalaro, basta gym lang ng gym.

6. puro solo portrait sa facebook, pinapakita macho body

7.Masama tumingin ng wala sa lugar; either nagpapaka-siga(pilit) or type niya ang guy.

8.Makabirit akala mo si Regine Velasquez. kahit na magpakamacho pa sya may mga mumunting details pa rin na nagri-reveal ng tunay nyang katauhan. (eg. mahilig kumanta ng highpitched songs, todo magpa-cute sa camera, kahit kelan e walang napakitang gf in person, may pagka kilos bakla pa rin)

9.tuwang-tuwa sa mga lalaking naka-hubad. Pa simple!!!

10. nahihiya (pakipot style) or napapa “yuck” pag nakakakita ng pics ng hubad na lalaking macho with labas na titi!

at marami pang iba!! oh yung mga paminta dyan..gora na!

sunrise!

the long travel yesterday was all worth it because of this morning scenery.